Hi everyone, Well, hello from northern Mississippi on the beautiful lake of Big Spring. We hare having a wonderful time just relaxing and swimming, watching all of Gods beauty explode. I hope you are well. I just got a phone call from "the wig lady" saying my wig is in. I have a great attitude that the Lord has given me and still a great peace about all of this. I have so many people I'm thankful for!!! I hope you all have a wonderful day today and I'll write more when I get home.

Hi everyone, Well here is the latest update on what's going on with me. Dr. Brook's office called today and said that the cancer is the very same as before. He told me to get the medi-port scheduled for next week and then chemo to follow. I'll be calling Dr. Laidley in the morning to get that scheduled. I'm going to a wig store tomorrow. I don't really know if I want a wig or not but my friend suggested it so I'll go take a look at them and see what I think. I'm not a scarf person or a turban person but I can do a ball cap if it isn't too big and sticks out all over. I want big bright gawdy earrings!!!! I told Kimberly that she will maybe need to make me wear some make-up so I will look like I'm alive. Philippians 3:13-14 have been meaning a lot to me lately. Read it and you'll understand why. Well, not much else going on right now so I'll close and do some other stuff. Love ya'll.

Good morning everyone, Well today is going to be an awesome day in the Lord. Anew refreshing visit with the Lord at a new church!!! All things are new because the old has passed away. I wish them "luck" because the church is God's church and not man's church. May HE be glorified only. Christopher and the kids made it to Maryland okay and Christopher is on his drive back to Philadelphia. Boy it would be nice if there was more cooperation in that area like what Philip and Summer do. Oh well, maybe some day. If not though... It's so quiet this morning-no sweet little girl saying, "Grammy, there's the hummingbird's!!" in an excited little anxious voice. No other little bigger voice saying, "can I have nutella for breakfast? I LOVE that stuff!!!" Precious children. Now, I'll take the time to put all their pictures together so they can remember their summer and know they didn't sit around doing nothing. It also gives them ideas for next year!!! I hope you all have a great day today.

This is our summer family picture for 2010. We have had so much fun with the kids this summer! They have been wonderful. We have done so much with them this year. Thank you Lord Jesus for allowing us to enjoy them so much. We have so many pictures it will take me some time to get them all together. They are all so supportive of me and this current trial. With them and Jesus by my side, I will overcome!!! Thanks to you all. I love you more than you'll ever know.

This is my newest creation in hats. A sweet woman that I don't know by the name of Kim sent me another cancer hat representing uterine cancer. It's in the middle as it's the first cancer that I had. I hope you all like it. I'm trying to be upbeat about all of this. Everyone says that it my personality that will get me through this latest cancer. No, it's GOD that is going to get me through this!!! My family and friends will play a VERY BIG part in my recovery!! I hope you all have a wonderful weekend.

Good morning satan, I'm awake!!! Well, yesterday was a long day! So, here it is all in a nutshell. I will start chemo when we are ready to go. I have to have a port so Dr. Laidley will insert that after we see each other again. Dr. Brook's said that I will have 6 treatments 3 weeks apart so that totals 18 weeks. I will have 3 drugs and it will take 4 hours to infuse each them. About 2 weeks after the first infusion I will loose my hair. So, we'll see what goes on. I may have nausea 2-3 days following treatments, I will probably be tired, I can exercise if I feel like it. Anyway, I know that God has a plan for me and I'm going to follow his plan. He also said for this to reoccur after 6 years is also rare. I already knew I was a rare and different. Anyway, I'm looking up and I'm praying up and preparing for this new trial. God is so good!!! Have a great day and weekend.

Good evening friends and family. Well, I have two Dr. appts on Thursday. The first is to get the stitches out and the 2nd is with the chemo Dr. Can't wait to see what the next act of the play is or should I say to start down the first big hill in the front seat of the coaster. It's a sad week because the kids go back to Maryland Sat. I'm already dreading it. They are so important to us. We will see them in November so that's not too far away. I have such wonderful friends who pray for me and my family daily. I'm excited about what the future holds and many new opportunities to share my cancer testimony with others. I went shopping today for a bunch of Clayton's supplies so he's all fixed up for awhile which is good. He's doing well, praise God. Not much more to share at this point in time so I'll go. You all have a nice evening.

Hey everyone, Well today is Sunday and hopefully I'm not as goofy as I was Friday and Saturday. I'm still a little tired, have a little pain(who wouldn't with a 2-3 inch incision) but I did get up, showered, put on some clothes and back in bed. I've been reading on cancer, different therapies, types of treatments. It's all so confusing to me. You almost don't know WHO to believe!!!! I don't want to be a guinea pig but I don't want to be just putting bucks into some big companies pockets either. God, What do I do? I know-I keep praying for HIS perfect will and His perfect plan. He'll give it to me because He knows I'm asking. Thank you ahead of time for the answer. I hope my blogs can be uplifting to all of you during this time of trial. James says to "consider it pure joy when we faces trials of many kinds because perserverance helps us to grow stronger in Him. and besides, growing stronger in the Lord makes satan angry!!! I LOVE seeing him angry because I know the end of the book and Who wins and who looses. Love you all and just keep praying for me.

Good morning everyone!!! I'm praising God this morning because I ended up with no J. P. drain!! As far as I knew going into surgery, I would come home with a drain for at least 2 weeks. The oncologist told Dr. Laidley to only remove the cancerous node and leave as much as they could of the rest of the nodes. I may be ignorant (probably am), but I see that as a miracle and a wonderful thing from God. Anyway, I'm praising His holy name. This is the day the Lord has made-I am rejoicing in it. I've had "breakfast in bed" and have my computer with me. I'm just so happy!!! I know yesterday if I spoke with you and you wondered why I sounded loopy, I was. I don't remember who I talked to or what I said. Anyway, I'm blessed. I hope you have a great day today and thank you for praying for me and just keep watching my blog to see what all God is going to do!!!!

Well, it's time to rock and roll. As I board the roller coaster I wanted to share a picture of one of my best friends, Cheryl, and I while we were on a roller coaster in Disney World. The Yetti was after us!! Both Cheryl and I have had a trying month. Me being diagnosed with cancer and Cheryl losing her job after 16 years. I am praying that all I'm going through will help to encourage her to hang on and wait on the Lord for what He has for her. She's as afraid as I am but over different things. I hope to be an encouragement to all of those I know and love. I arrive at the hospital at 10am with surgery at 11am. I should be home probably around 5-6 pm. I'll just be glad to get this first part over with. At least from there, then we can progress onto whatever has to be done to completely kill these cancer cells out! Thank you all for all the prayers said on my behalf. I'm doing great-just trusting in Him and waiting on Him to so I can mount up with wings as eagles. Every scripture passage that I have just turned to or read about, for the most part has been about trust. So, Jesus, I'm trusting You because You know the plan that You have for me. I praise You for the plan. May my trials and tribulations be for Your Glory!! Good night everyone and I'll write again after surgery is over.

Hello everyone, Well the countdown is like 1 1/2 days or so til surgery. I can't wait to get it over with. I talked a long time with a nurse from Medical City with a 6 page paper to fill out over the phone. We had a great day today. Kimberly and I took the kids to the C. R. Smith Museum at the training academy for American Airlines. My dad was a personal friend of C. R. many years ago. While there, we got to go into the training academy and look at "the wall" of honor you might say for those men that did great things for American Airlines and also for the people of the U. S. My dad is on that wall for several distinguished service awards! Caleb and Caitlyn were thrilled to learn more about Grandpa Brown and to go into one of the first airplanes that I ever flew in! They were shocked!!! We took many things to the museum that will be helpful in telling others all about AA in the "early days". Great fun. Be praying for Dr. Laidley and Sheryl, her assistant, that helps with surgery. Pray for my family also. I have a few new pictures to add to this page so here it goes. I'll see if I can do these in an orderly fashion. Yeah right.This is Caitlyn's Mutton Busting award that she got for being an excellent mutton buster!Here I am in my creation. My breast cancer hats-the left one is for 6 years, the right is for newly diagnosed!! I had fun with this. Anyway, I thought you might enjoy a smile or 2. Have a great night and remember that Jesus loves you so much that He died for you on a horrible cross.

Well, here I am again. I've had a great day. Did some errands with a friend and laughed a lot. I'm very excited also. On Wed. we are taking the kids to the C. R. Smith museum and also to the American Airlines training center. I'm taking some historical things to the museum which is all about American Airlines. Then we are going to the training center to read and see the "wall" that they have there for employees that have done a lot of good things not only for AA but also for the preservation of our great country and many history things. That's where my dad fits in. He was very active with his 33 years of flying for AA. He also did many great and wonderful things for his fellow human beings. It will be so neat to see "the wall" again because it's been years since we were allowed to go into the training center for the pilots as well as the flight attendants. Caleb is very excited and so is Caitlyn. They want to learn all about the good things that Grandpa Brown did while he was alive and the lasting impressions that my dad left on people. One of the things my dad did was to save an airplane, crew, passengers back in the 70's when he was hit by a tornado. There was no knowledge at the time about "straight line winds" and not only did daddy experience a tornado in the air but also experienced the first straight line winds that everyone survived. He received not 1 but 2 distinguished awards from AA for doing what he did to help in the survival of everyone. This is a man that barely got out of high school!! My dad was a brillant man. He was also a great history buff. I could go on and on about him and all the wonderful things he did in his life. The kids and I were working on the "ministry opportunity" that our church is doing in a couple of weeks. They both picked out 2 sets of clothes for boys and girls, help purchase new socks, underwear, etc. We took it all to church today along with the water they need, cookies also. They were very happy to be serving others. I'm so glad they are here. I told them they could even help me after surgery and they are so willing to be involved. Thank you Lord for these 2 wonderful kids. I'm going to have to change my description of myself because we are expecting another grandbaby in March. While Kimberly and I were looking at "the blob with a heartbeat" I was searching for a pink bow. Nothing yet-ha. It won't be til October that we hopefully will find out what "it" is. Right now, it is Baby C #2. Caleb and Caitlyn were so thrilled to find out about another cousin!!! Excited isn't a word I'd use-more like delirious!!! When they come in the spring, the baby should be here. That's so neat for them to be here about the time it comes. Well, I'm going to go for now. That's all the news I have. I'm at peace with this week, looking forward to moving on, and I know that Jesus is holding my hand and leading me into this next valley. It's going to be okay. He is in control. Love you all and thank you for reading my blog.

Hello everyone, Well, the roller coaster is for sure loaded now. Today was my pre-op appt. for surgery on Friday the 13th. It's a great day for me because my beloved daddy was born on the 13th and the year he turned 13, it was Friday the 13th so I'm not worried. Well, my final diagnosis is metastatic breast cancer. Yep, it's the same as I had 6 years ago. Even the oncologist is upset because my chances of reoccurrance was so low-15%. To go 6 years is strange also. Oh well, here I am at the "now". No "what if's" over the last 6 years. That year I got to enjoy my then little Caleb for a month and if I had chemo, he couldn't have come down. MUCH more important to be with him!! I will have chemo this time and no radiation. There is also cancer in my sternum which will be effected by the chemo. Radiation only if there is pain so I'm grateful that there is no pain. Anyway, wanted to update you all. May you have a blessed day in the Lord. Love ya'll

Hello everyone, Well, can't sleep so I thought I'd just update my blog. As of last blog, the tests were all done and I was waiting on results. Well, let me back up a little. Friday evening, we didn't get to go to the rodeo. Caleb fell and broke his wrist-a buckle fracture. He was so very brave in ER and on Monday, he got a blue cast with a red stripe. That's exactly what he wanted. The Dr. had him supervise putting it on. He (Caleb) is so sweet. Do you know they have been praying about this cancer. God is so sweet. Anyway, he can still swim so he was thrilled to death. In fact, he went yesterday afternoon!!! Anyway, moving on. The results are in-glad finally but I've just been waiting on the Lord. There is no cancer in my abdomen. There is a little cancer in my sternum, Dr. Laidley will be removing the cancerous lymph node on the right along with a few others to check them. They haven't "staged" the cancer yet, so that will happen. The lymph node on the left may come out too. I will have chemo in order to kill the cells in the sternum. How can my witness be real effective if I don't go through all the stages of cancer- like chemo? I have to be able to empathize with others. Anyway, surgery is supposed to be next week so I'll keep everyone posted.

My brother crossed the gulf today heading back from Key West. It was a long day for him and the dog, I'm sure. He doesn't want to be around for any storms that maybe heading across the Atlantic-like Colin. I'm glad he's closer. Keep him in your prayers as he travels west.

We're taking the kids to the circus I think on Saturday. They don't know it yet. We'll ride DART and go to the American Airlines Center. Should be fun. Zachary, I'm sure, will be amazed.

Tonight we went to the Purple Cow and watched outside the water/music/light show. It was enjoyable and then we went and had ice cream. Everyone's asleep but me!!! (and the others out driving on the road).

With it being so late, I hope the raccoon comes to check out the feeders. I keep watching for him/her. They are so much fun to watch.

Caitlyn and Caleb both baked a cake in Caitlyn's easy bake oven. It was a fun-fetti cake and they iced them. They turned out really good. That machine is amazing-who would have ever thought that you could bake a cake using a powerful light bulb! Caitlyn wants to make the pretzels next. She loves to cook with me and I'm so glad she does. Well, gonna try and get some sleep so you all sleep well also.

Sunday, The day before all the tests reports come in. I hope. I'll be glad to know the results and hopefully we'll know the plan as soon as possible. I'm ready to move on and get the roller coaster moving and get it all over behind me. We have the kids only 3 more weeks. The time goes too fast when they are here. I'm so happy that we have Jesus supporting us and helping us to explain to them how a true christian handles bad situations. We love those kids so much. I don't know if you've heard or not, but we have another grand baby coming!!! In March, 2011 Zachary is going to be a big brother. It's exciting. Well, I'll keep you all posted on results!!! My love to you all.