Good evening everyone. Well, here is the newest member of the Cornelius family!!! Miss Baby C is 28 weeks along and is growing well. She's chubbier than her brother was at this stage. We are excited, of course. Caitlyn asked if she was "out" yet because I had told her that we were going to see the new baby. Caitlyn is so precious. She was so happy that Grammy is feeling better. Today was a much better day for me. Not as tired, praise the Lord. I sure hope you have a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!!

Good afternoon everyone. Well, different kinds of news from the Johnson household. Yesterday, I went in to get my blood tested and to have Dr. Brook's check this heart shaped rash on my forehead. Well, he looked at me and said, "you're finished!" I didn't understand what he said and so he repeated it and added NO MORE CHEMO FOR ME. I had 5 doses out of 6 and now we'll see what we do from here. I have to have an ECHO on Monday following my antibiotic infusion. It's to test and see how my heart is. I'm so glad that the chemo is finished. Then today, we went to Kimberly's Dr. appt and got to see some 3D4D pictures of Miss Baby C. She is bigger at this point in time than Zachary was. She has fat little fingers, and fat chubby cheeks. Tomorrow, we have a regular 3 D appt with Visions of Love so we'll get better pictures of her and then we can post them. Caleb and Caitlyn will be arriving her on Monday!! Can't wait to see them. I hope you all have a very Merry Christ-mas and I'll keep you posted on my events as they go along. God Bless You All!!

Hello everyone!!! Wow, I can't believe it's been so long since I've written on my blog. Sorry. I had treatment # 5 and so glad it's over with. I have 1 more to go and then it'll be PET time, ECHO test time, etc. to see how I've done through everything. Other than fighting sinus infections, I've been doing okay. I'm once again on antibiotics, which is helping to get rid of this sinus stuff. As far as my feelings go from chemo, I'm doing okay. Tomorrow, it's supposed to be a beautiful day in the 70's and so I'm going to get out and do a little bit of shopping and playing after my Dr. appt. Tonight, I feel like cooking so it's meat loaf, mashed potatoes, veggie casserole. I'll finish my brother's Christmas cards tonight, and begin to work on ours. I've gotten quite a few done. I'll give out the neighbor cards tomorrow, waiting for pictures for our cards, and got the cards and pictures for Clayton's. I'll do that this evening. I want to put a couple of pictures on here of several different things. My friend Kathy Ellis made me a beautiful blanket and then just some other snap shots. I hope you all have a great week. Tomorrow is "hump" day!!! Love ya.

Hi everyone, It's Saturday. It's hard to believe that I've been hoe from the hospital for a week and haven't gotten ANYTHING accomplished!!! Accept rest. I went out for a little bit yesterday and ended up sleeping for 3 hours when I got home!!! The fatigue is what gets you. Marilyn has been telling me about that all along and I just couldn't imagine it. It's true!!! I'm almost ready for bed now and it's 8:15pm. I hope you all have a great evening and an even better tomorrow and remember to visit the church of your choice. Love ya. Oh yeah, the picture that I enclosed is my new hat that Jan gave me from church!! Thanks so much Jan.

Hello from the Johnson Household!! Well, I'm doing better-praise the Lord. White count is coming right on back up and my Hgb. was looking a lot better. I'm blessed. I've stayed in the house since I got home other than going out Monday to do my lab work. Cabin fever!! Today, I'm going to put on my clothes and not stay in my pj's and put up a few Christmas decorations in the house. I still have pumpkins out!!!! My strength is coming back but I don't want to overdo it for sure. Chemo # 5 is Monday after my visit with Dr. Brook's. He says I'm tough and I say it's God's strength that is making to tough, I can do ALL things through Christ that strengthens me. Christopher is off today so I'll have him buying a few Christmas presents for me-wish I was out there myself but that ain't happening!!! It's a beautiful clear day, hardly any breeze and it's about 56 degrees out there. Still pretty cool. Anyway, I wanted to keep you all updated with how things are in Texas We sure do miss the kids but they'll be back in about 3 1/2 weeks!!! Yeah!!! I hope you all have a wonderful day today and remember Jesus loves you!!!

Good morning everyone, there is no place like home!!! Thank you Lord for letting me get home. Didn't sleep well last night because of the cough, so hopefully a nap will do the trick. I'm still on antibiotics and I go for labwork tomorrow and see how I'm doing. Will have to keep you posted. I was so excited today that I got to "go" to church online today. My brother Larry also went to church with me from parts unknown-haha, and then Kimberly did also-Zachary has a cold. It's nice to have family attending church together!!! The kids made it back to Maryland safely-thank you Jesus for that and Christopher just got home also. Gotta run and do some lunch preparation from the bed for making fresh tea.

Hello everyone, Sorry I haven't written in a while because I'm in the hospital since Wed. night. Had hospital turkey and dressing. I may get to go home today so we'll see. I have to have a chest x-ray this morning and then we'll see how it goes. My counts dropped so low they were basically non-existant and I couldn't fight a flea and win. I'll keep you posted because I'm going for a chest film right now.

Hi everyone, Well, I have rested all day and hopefully feeling a little better this evening. I have been a good girl and rested since my treatments!! The kids are going to be here tomorrow sometime and we're so excited to see them. I know they are looking forward to getting here for a few days. I wish the weather was going to be better-Christmas pictures may be somewhat different this year if we have rain and don't get the cards out until new year. Oh well, we'll see. I have a prayer request for you-a friend is in the hospital and needs prayers. Keep it as an unspoken request because God knows what it is and I don't need to mention it. In case, I don't write before Thanksgiving, we hope your holiday is a great one!!!! I think I have a picture I can put on here. This was at a fun Pumpkin Patch in OK that Kimberly, Zachary and I went to. It was great fun. Happy Thanksgiving!!!

Hello everyone. Today was my chemo treatment # 4 along with my Dr. visit. Dr. Brook's said I was doing well, and he was pleased with my progress. I had one of of the Cancer marker tests back and it was all within normal limits so I was excited about it. Praise the Lord. My treatment was about 3 hours so it was a shorter day. The grand children will be here on Sunday so I'm going to rest as much as I can this week so I'll hopefully feel good while they are here. We can't wait to see them and they are excited to be coming down. We're already trying to make some plans for them, I just hope I can participate in the plans but at least they'll understand what's going on with me. As long as they see that I'm healthy and doing well, then that's okay. Unfortunately my last treatment has to be the day that they come for Christmas. I was hoping to put it off for a week but Dr. Brooks said that I needed to keep to the schedule. I will also have the PET scan the week they are here. I'll be glad to start the new year with good results. I hope you all have a good evening and a great rest of the week. Love you all.

The picture of Bryan and I are at Les and Kimberly house celebrating our 40th wedding anniversary. Christopher, Zachary, and the Lewisville Farmer mascot at a football game. Kimberly and Z at the pumpkin patch in OK. Several of us acting crazy with some of my wigs or hats.



Hello everyone. I have a couple of new pictures for you all!!!! Some are of me, Zachary, misc. pictures. I hope you all enjoy them so much. I'm so glad that God had someone create the camera. !!! Don't you just love "the skunk"??

Arbuckle Wilderness!!!!




What an exciting night!! We had dinner with friends and we're watching the election returns. I'm getting ready to go to bed though in a just a little bit!!! I can't believe we're already in November!!! Time goes too quickly. So much goes on this month. Birthdays, my favorite holiday-Thanksgiving and OF COURSE my MOST favorite shopping day plus we watch Chevy Chase's Christmas Vacation. So many traditions and so much thankfulness. I've got a couple of pictures to add. Not in order cause I struggle getting things in a line but football fun, pumpkin patch fun and also taking Kimberly and Z to the Arbuckle Wilderness park.

Well who looks better in the wig, Bryan or I? hahaha. Everyone still says that I'm doing the buzz cut "well". It doesn't bother me one way or the other. To me, I look strange with hair this color and this length. Bryan likes it though. Yesterday at the office, it was so funny. I was wearing my wig into get my blood drawn and the girls were asking me about how my hair was doing. I told them it was growing and pulled my wig off to show them. When they finished, we walked back out to the waiting room and this woman did a double take at me. I laughed and said, "they took more than my blood!" It was so funny. She said, "I didn't realize you were even wearing a wig!" Funny day. I wan't you to hear that story. I have a picture of the cutest little skunk in the world. He was a skunk for trick or treating the other night and he looks so sweet. I want to add his picture also.I wish we had a picture of Caleb and Caitlyn in their costumes. Maybe Christopher can ask for one. Have a good day everyone.

Hey everyone, We are doing okay. I had a long day today, I had to get my blood work done . We went to Kimberly's house for dinner tonight. She cooked us a wonderful dinner to help celebrate our 40th year wedding anniversary. Ruby is the color for 40 for we wore red, had red plates, napkins, etc. We had red skinned potatoes, stuffed tomatoes, etc. It was wonderful. She worked so hard all day to fix stuff and to make it a great day. We had a nice time thanks to the Cornelius family! Well, I'm heading for bed now so write more later.

Good morning to everyone. Well, today is Saturday! Where did Thursday and Friday go? Oh yeah, I was in bed. I'll probably be there today also although I DO feel a little better this morning. I slept better last night so that's good. It's such a beautiful day out there. A little windy maybe and cool but hopefully it'll warm up some.

Zachary came over yesterday in his little skunk costume. Oh my gosh, how cute!!!! I'll have to get some pictures for you to see. I texted Caleb and Caitlyn yesterday also which we do all the time, but they never text back. At least they know we're thinking of them. They aren't encouraged in any way to keep in touch with us and that's very sad. We just keep praying for them and loving them long distanced. I do have a box to send but was hoping to get my movie completed before sending the box. I now wish I hadn't bought an Apple as I struggle to use it. It's nice and it's supposed to be easier but this old dog has a hard time.

The town of Lucas is having a fun day today with lots of activities and then Trunk or Treat. I have the candy but the car isn't decorated. Can only do a little bit of stuff. Well, I'm going to go this morning and I hope you all have a good day and an enjoyable weekend.

Good morning to everyone. Well, I saw Dr. Brook's yesterday and he said that my bloodwork was "spectacular" and I was doing well. He also said that I may be in the 5% group of people that don't totally loose their hair!!! Woo-hoo!!! I'm doing good so far this morning. The treatment went well yesterday and I had the pleasure of my son, Christopher, coming down for a little bit. He's been worried because he's had to work everytime I have something done. It's a beautiful morning, and I'm loving it!!!! I hope your day goes well and here's another picture to add to my collection. I don't think I've added this one yet.

Good morning to all my friends and family. I hope you have a wonderful day today. Just thought I'd update you as to the happenings around here for the next several days. Tomorrow is my 3rd chemo treatment!!! I can't believe I'm 1/2 of the way done! Thank You Jesus! Today I start the steroids and insulin again. I think these 3 days are almost my hardest because I HAVE to eat something and I'm not always hungry-especially days 2 and 3. I also see my oncologist tomorrow so I can't wait to find out when we'll do the PET scan or CT or whatever will be done. I can't wait for him to see how much hair I truly do have even though it's a burr. I just didn't like seeing it fall out when I brushed my hair-now I don't have to brush it!! Yeah!!! Got my wig "adjusted" yesterday but it was giving me a headache. I may not even wear it much-we'll see. Everyone says I can do "bald" well, so if it's an encouragement to women or men for that matter to see someone not worrying about how superficial hair is then maybe that's one of the testimonies He has for me to share. It's what is on the inside that counts!!! Jesus loves us no matter what! Big, small, hairy, bald, etc. Get to know Him, He's your BEST FRIEND!!! Ask Him to share your life with you and you'll NEVER be alone!!! Have a wonderful day today.

Well what do you think of my Allen Eagle look? The hair bow Kimberly bought and wore and we will use it for our new little girl next year for a ball game!! Have a great weekend.

Good morning everyone!!!! Praise God I'm doing well!! God is so good ALL the time!!!!! It's an awesome day- Allen Eagles won and so did the Texas Rangers! I have a new hat! Does that surprise anyone?? As soon as I get the pictures online, I'll post some new pictures. Well, just wanted to check in briefly, so have an awesome weekend and spend time with the Lord!!!

Hello everyone!!! Well, it's been a busy week and weekend. We had a family wedding and have a ball at it. Zachary really had fun at the wedding. There was music and dancing and he loved it!!!! I went to get my blood work done today and so my white count was low so I'm on antibiotics just in case. Oh I want you to see the new "me". My head reminds me of a young appaloosa that is beginning to "spot out". I have white hair on one side, a polka dot (dark) on the other side and the back is multicolored! I'll add some pictures of some of my hats and wigs but I don't want to do it all at once. My hair was just coming out in handfuls and I was self conscience about it falling out and being all over my clothes or in my food or I'd find it in my mouth during the night. 3rd chemo is next Monday and then I'm 1/2 way done!!! Praise the Lord. I'm really doing well and I'm looking forward to my next scan. As the story about David and Goliath goes, I have thrown 2 stones so far and just have 4 more. Speaking of David and Goliath, I was so excited because when my friend Cheryl went to Israel, she was in the valley where David picked up his stones. She picked some up and brought me one!!! I'm so happy about it. It's in the little bag I have that holds my holding cross. It stays by my bed and is in my hand during chemo and also in my hand when I'm praying. Thank you so much Cheryl for the stone. It's so neat to me. Kimberly is now 4 months along now and doing well. Zachary is talking more and more everyday. He can say "baby, Duchess, Poppy, tries to say Kodi, etc" He's so busy. Whenever he sees pictures of Caleb and Caitlyn , he gets so excited and points at them and tries to say their names. He's such a sweet little guy. We miss Caleb and Caitlyn and we try to talk to them, but that's hard to work out. Our times coming though-they will be here for Thanksgiving and so we'll be happy to see them down here. We'll do our "family Christmas" pictures while they are here. Well, gonna go and get to bed so you all take care and know we are doing well.

I couldn't get the other picture up-just the first one!!! She's beautiful!! Well, I haven't written on this in awhile. Sorry. I've been busy!!! Gee, what have I been up to???? I've had 2 treatments now, hair is thinning and is disappearing, nausea occ. but praise God no vomiting. Well, we found out that Kimberly and Les are having a little GIRL!!!! Yeah!! exciting for all of us. My brother came to visit for a couple of days and we surprised him and celebrated his birthday while he was here. I think he was surprised that we went to the effort. It was worth it all!!! Zachary is growing like a weed, he's now 18 months old and on his way to 19 months old. Caleb and Caitlyn are doing okay, I guess. I haven't gotten to talk to them in a few days. So sad. Love those kids so much. We're enjoying our new church and I'm just so blessed. When I don't feel like going, I watch it online which is great. The website is www.cbclucas.org and you can go to video monitoring and watch services live during the times or recorded. The thing is if it's supposed to be on, then give it a minute or a little while because of HIPPA, the pastor can't give names and faces during prayer times so just hang on and it'll come on. It's very exciting and I'm so blessed to be a part of such an awesome church!!! Not much else going on right now so I'll go and you all have a great day. Have a wonderful weekend.

Howdy from the great state of Texas!!! I've had a great week so far this week. I actually took a nap a little while ago. It was nice. This was a good day today because we got to hear the new baby's heartbeat a little while ago. So exciting. I have a new wig that I'll include to this note. Zachary is modeling it for me. HOpe you like it!!! Not too much excitement going on right now so I'll talk to you all later.

Good morning world, I'm so sorry I haven't written in awhile but I'm been "under the weather" as you know. I feel a little stronger today. I felt a lot stronger yesterday and so I inadverantly stayed up to long and now I'm tired again. Chemo week is tough!!! All I can say-tearful, tiring, sleepless, drink this, drink that, etc. I know this week will be better. Not a lot going on PTL but I go for my first blood counts this morning to see how it goes. Then hopefully, lunch at Furr's for some super iron building goodies liver liver/onions/spinach, etc. Well, Kimberly starts week #15 tomorrow. So exciting!!! October 4th is the gender 3-d day. Can't wait-it's the day before the #2 stone is being thrown at Goliath!! Zachary is 18 months old and boy does he jabber and jabber. He's such a cutie. I wish we could talk to Caleb and Caitlyn more but they aren't encouraged to talk to us. So sad. They're always in our prayers on a daily basis. I hope Caleb is enjoying his Nutella that we sent him. He loves that stuff and in fact, I'm having it for breakfast!!! Little things like this, we can do to stay close to them or at least try to stay close to them. If you live "up north" and know our kids, love on them for us and remind them how much they are loved and thought about. You all have a blessed day. Love ya

Well here they are, I added these other two. One is my good picture and the other is a silly look!! HOpe you all like these pictures.

This is Bob and Carolyn who are letting me borrow some of their hats!! Thank you so much.




Oh I just forgot, want to include a few new pictures!!!I wanted to show you how cute Zachary looked and then this other picture is of a little wig that will fit under ball caps. I have another picture of just me in the wig that I bought. Where did it Go?

I got to talk to Dr. Laidley's nurse this afternoon. So sweet for her to call. She told me I could shoer and take off the patch so I was so glad that I could because the tape was irritating my skin. My chemo #1 is tomorrow. A little nervous but Jesus Christ is carrying me right now. I'm going to sleep well as I'm not leaning on my understanding and He says He'll make my sleep well. So I'm heading to bed. I stayed home all day today because I did too much yesterday. Our church has our services online so I was still in church today. That is so wonderful because I can watch in "live time" and that's great. So good night everyone and I'll try and talk tomorrow.

Boy, what a day yesterday was!!! I got the port but definitely feel as if I've been run over by a truck or something to that extent. I'm in pain from the insertion of the port but it will fade. I'm glad I decided not to do chemo on the same day of the insertion. I'm going to get my wig today and get it fixed. It should be interesting. Several friends are going with me including my best friend, Kimberly C. I have such wonderful friends. Our pastor has already called this morning also. We are so blessed. I was reading scripture last night- Psalm 27. He's going to make cancer fall!! The Lord is the stronghold of my life-of whom shall I be afraid? Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear, though war break out against me, even then will I be confident. So... BRING ON THE CHEMO AND LET'S GET THE CANCER GONE!!! Praise to His Holy Name, Thank You Jesus for your great love.

Hello everyone!!!!! Well, we have some exciting news today on 2 fronts!!! The first front is that the cancer is going to be more receptive to the drug Herceptin than we thought it was. I'm so thrilled!!! The next thing is that the Dr. thinks the new baby is going to be a girl. That's so exciting!!! We saw her moving around today, kicking, squirming, fingers in her mouth, you could see her spine growing, and her little feet and hands and legs. It was so exciting to see her moving around. Her heart rate was 156 . I don't care what it really is, I just want a healthy little baby to love on and adore. God's timing is so perfect!!! We are so grateful for all that is going on right now from cancer to pregnancy!!! God's faithfulness is so awesome!!!!

Good morning world!!!! We are home from vacation and already missing the boat. Today is "chemo school" for me today. Bryan, Kimberly, and Zachary will be going with me. More sets of ears are better than just one. I know the Lord is carrying me though right now so I'm leaning on Him!!! I can't believe that we are already into September!!! Oh my goodness. We had a cold front come through last night so it's about 70 degrees and I'm lovin it! I hope you all have a great and blessed day. I'll keep you posted on the outcome of todays school lesson!!

Hi everyone, Well, hello from northern Mississippi on the beautiful lake of Big Spring. We hare having a wonderful time just relaxing and swimming, watching all of Gods beauty explode. I hope you are well. I just got a phone call from "the wig lady" saying my wig is in. I have a great attitude that the Lord has given me and still a great peace about all of this. I have so many people I'm thankful for!!! I hope you all have a wonderful day today and I'll write more when I get home.

Hi everyone, Well here is the latest update on what's going on with me. Dr. Brook's office called today and said that the cancer is the very same as before. He told me to get the medi-port scheduled for next week and then chemo to follow. I'll be calling Dr. Laidley in the morning to get that scheduled. I'm going to a wig store tomorrow. I don't really know if I want a wig or not but my friend suggested it so I'll go take a look at them and see what I think. I'm not a scarf person or a turban person but I can do a ball cap if it isn't too big and sticks out all over. I want big bright gawdy earrings!!!! I told Kimberly that she will maybe need to make me wear some make-up so I will look like I'm alive. Philippians 3:13-14 have been meaning a lot to me lately. Read it and you'll understand why. Well, not much else going on right now so I'll close and do some other stuff. Love ya'll.

Good morning everyone, Well today is going to be an awesome day in the Lord. Anew refreshing visit with the Lord at a new church!!! All things are new because the old has passed away. I wish them "luck" because the church is God's church and not man's church. May HE be glorified only. Christopher and the kids made it to Maryland okay and Christopher is on his drive back to Philadelphia. Boy it would be nice if there was more cooperation in that area like what Philip and Summer do. Oh well, maybe some day. If not though... It's so quiet this morning-no sweet little girl saying, "Grammy, there's the hummingbird's!!" in an excited little anxious voice. No other little bigger voice saying, "can I have nutella for breakfast? I LOVE that stuff!!!" Precious children. Now, I'll take the time to put all their pictures together so they can remember their summer and know they didn't sit around doing nothing. It also gives them ideas for next year!!! I hope you all have a great day today.

This is our summer family picture for 2010. We have had so much fun with the kids this summer! They have been wonderful. We have done so much with them this year. Thank you Lord Jesus for allowing us to enjoy them so much. We have so many pictures it will take me some time to get them all together. They are all so supportive of me and this current trial. With them and Jesus by my side, I will overcome!!! Thanks to you all. I love you more than you'll ever know.

This is my newest creation in hats. A sweet woman that I don't know by the name of Kim sent me another cancer hat representing uterine cancer. It's in the middle as it's the first cancer that I had. I hope you all like it. I'm trying to be upbeat about all of this. Everyone says that it my personality that will get me through this latest cancer. No, it's GOD that is going to get me through this!!! My family and friends will play a VERY BIG part in my recovery!! I hope you all have a wonderful weekend.

Good morning satan, I'm awake!!! Well, yesterday was a long day! So, here it is all in a nutshell. I will start chemo when we are ready to go. I have to have a port so Dr. Laidley will insert that after we see each other again. Dr. Brook's said that I will have 6 treatments 3 weeks apart so that totals 18 weeks. I will have 3 drugs and it will take 4 hours to infuse each them. About 2 weeks after the first infusion I will loose my hair. So, we'll see what goes on. I may have nausea 2-3 days following treatments, I will probably be tired, I can exercise if I feel like it. Anyway, I know that God has a plan for me and I'm going to follow his plan. He also said for this to reoccur after 6 years is also rare. I already knew I was a rare and different. Anyway, I'm looking up and I'm praying up and preparing for this new trial. God is so good!!! Have a great day and weekend.

Good evening friends and family. Well, I have two Dr. appts on Thursday. The first is to get the stitches out and the 2nd is with the chemo Dr. Can't wait to see what the next act of the play is or should I say to start down the first big hill in the front seat of the coaster. It's a sad week because the kids go back to Maryland Sat. I'm already dreading it. They are so important to us. We will see them in November so that's not too far away. I have such wonderful friends who pray for me and my family daily. I'm excited about what the future holds and many new opportunities to share my cancer testimony with others. I went shopping today for a bunch of Clayton's supplies so he's all fixed up for awhile which is good. He's doing well, praise God. Not much more to share at this point in time so I'll go. You all have a nice evening.

Hey everyone, Well today is Sunday and hopefully I'm not as goofy as I was Friday and Saturday. I'm still a little tired, have a little pain(who wouldn't with a 2-3 inch incision) but I did get up, showered, put on some clothes and back in bed. I've been reading on cancer, different therapies, types of treatments. It's all so confusing to me. You almost don't know WHO to believe!!!! I don't want to be a guinea pig but I don't want to be just putting bucks into some big companies pockets either. God, What do I do? I know-I keep praying for HIS perfect will and His perfect plan. He'll give it to me because He knows I'm asking. Thank you ahead of time for the answer. I hope my blogs can be uplifting to all of you during this time of trial. James says to "consider it pure joy when we faces trials of many kinds because perserverance helps us to grow stronger in Him. and besides, growing stronger in the Lord makes satan angry!!! I LOVE seeing him angry because I know the end of the book and Who wins and who looses. Love you all and just keep praying for me.

Good morning everyone!!! I'm praising God this morning because I ended up with no J. P. drain!! As far as I knew going into surgery, I would come home with a drain for at least 2 weeks. The oncologist told Dr. Laidley to only remove the cancerous node and leave as much as they could of the rest of the nodes. I may be ignorant (probably am), but I see that as a miracle and a wonderful thing from God. Anyway, I'm praising His holy name. This is the day the Lord has made-I am rejoicing in it. I've had "breakfast in bed" and have my computer with me. I'm just so happy!!! I know yesterday if I spoke with you and you wondered why I sounded loopy, I was. I don't remember who I talked to or what I said. Anyway, I'm blessed. I hope you have a great day today and thank you for praying for me and just keep watching my blog to see what all God is going to do!!!!

Well, it's time to rock and roll. As I board the roller coaster I wanted to share a picture of one of my best friends, Cheryl, and I while we were on a roller coaster in Disney World. The Yetti was after us!! Both Cheryl and I have had a trying month. Me being diagnosed with cancer and Cheryl losing her job after 16 years. I am praying that all I'm going through will help to encourage her to hang on and wait on the Lord for what He has for her. She's as afraid as I am but over different things. I hope to be an encouragement to all of those I know and love. I arrive at the hospital at 10am with surgery at 11am. I should be home probably around 5-6 pm. I'll just be glad to get this first part over with. At least from there, then we can progress onto whatever has to be done to completely kill these cancer cells out! Thank you all for all the prayers said on my behalf. I'm doing great-just trusting in Him and waiting on Him to so I can mount up with wings as eagles. Every scripture passage that I have just turned to or read about, for the most part has been about trust. So, Jesus, I'm trusting You because You know the plan that You have for me. I praise You for the plan. May my trials and tribulations be for Your Glory!! Good night everyone and I'll write again after surgery is over.

Hello everyone, Well the countdown is like 1 1/2 days or so til surgery. I can't wait to get it over with. I talked a long time with a nurse from Medical City with a 6 page paper to fill out over the phone. We had a great day today. Kimberly and I took the kids to the C. R. Smith Museum at the training academy for American Airlines. My dad was a personal friend of C. R. many years ago. While there, we got to go into the training academy and look at "the wall" of honor you might say for those men that did great things for American Airlines and also for the people of the U. S. My dad is on that wall for several distinguished service awards! Caleb and Caitlyn were thrilled to learn more about Grandpa Brown and to go into one of the first airplanes that I ever flew in! They were shocked!!! We took many things to the museum that will be helpful in telling others all about AA in the "early days". Great fun. Be praying for Dr. Laidley and Sheryl, her assistant, that helps with surgery. Pray for my family also. I have a few new pictures to add to this page so here it goes. I'll see if I can do these in an orderly fashion. Yeah right.This is Caitlyn's Mutton Busting award that she got for being an excellent mutton buster!Here I am in my creation. My breast cancer hats-the left one is for 6 years, the right is for newly diagnosed!! I had fun with this. Anyway, I thought you might enjoy a smile or 2. Have a great night and remember that Jesus loves you so much that He died for you on a horrible cross.

Well, here I am again. I've had a great day. Did some errands with a friend and laughed a lot. I'm very excited also. On Wed. we are taking the kids to the C. R. Smith museum and also to the American Airlines training center. I'm taking some historical things to the museum which is all about American Airlines. Then we are going to the training center to read and see the "wall" that they have there for employees that have done a lot of good things not only for AA but also for the preservation of our great country and many history things. That's where my dad fits in. He was very active with his 33 years of flying for AA. He also did many great and wonderful things for his fellow human beings. It will be so neat to see "the wall" again because it's been years since we were allowed to go into the training center for the pilots as well as the flight attendants. Caleb is very excited and so is Caitlyn. They want to learn all about the good things that Grandpa Brown did while he was alive and the lasting impressions that my dad left on people. One of the things my dad did was to save an airplane, crew, passengers back in the 70's when he was hit by a tornado. There was no knowledge at the time about "straight line winds" and not only did daddy experience a tornado in the air but also experienced the first straight line winds that everyone survived. He received not 1 but 2 distinguished awards from AA for doing what he did to help in the survival of everyone. This is a man that barely got out of high school!! My dad was a brillant man. He was also a great history buff. I could go on and on about him and all the wonderful things he did in his life. The kids and I were working on the "ministry opportunity" that our church is doing in a couple of weeks. They both picked out 2 sets of clothes for boys and girls, help purchase new socks, underwear, etc. We took it all to church today along with the water they need, cookies also. They were very happy to be serving others. I'm so glad they are here. I told them they could even help me after surgery and they are so willing to be involved. Thank you Lord for these 2 wonderful kids. I'm going to have to change my description of myself because we are expecting another grandbaby in March. While Kimberly and I were looking at "the blob with a heartbeat" I was searching for a pink bow. Nothing yet-ha. It won't be til October that we hopefully will find out what "it" is. Right now, it is Baby C #2. Caleb and Caitlyn were so thrilled to find out about another cousin!!! Excited isn't a word I'd use-more like delirious!!! When they come in the spring, the baby should be here. That's so neat for them to be here about the time it comes. Well, I'm going to go for now. That's all the news I have. I'm at peace with this week, looking forward to moving on, and I know that Jesus is holding my hand and leading me into this next valley. It's going to be okay. He is in control. Love you all and thank you for reading my blog.

Hello everyone, Well, the roller coaster is for sure loaded now. Today was my pre-op appt. for surgery on Friday the 13th. It's a great day for me because my beloved daddy was born on the 13th and the year he turned 13, it was Friday the 13th so I'm not worried. Well, my final diagnosis is metastatic breast cancer. Yep, it's the same as I had 6 years ago. Even the oncologist is upset because my chances of reoccurrance was so low-15%. To go 6 years is strange also. Oh well, here I am at the "now". No "what if's" over the last 6 years. That year I got to enjoy my then little Caleb for a month and if I had chemo, he couldn't have come down. MUCH more important to be with him!! I will have chemo this time and no radiation. There is also cancer in my sternum which will be effected by the chemo. Radiation only if there is pain so I'm grateful that there is no pain. Anyway, wanted to update you all. May you have a blessed day in the Lord. Love ya'll

Hello everyone, Well, can't sleep so I thought I'd just update my blog. As of last blog, the tests were all done and I was waiting on results. Well, let me back up a little. Friday evening, we didn't get to go to the rodeo. Caleb fell and broke his wrist-a buckle fracture. He was so very brave in ER and on Monday, he got a blue cast with a red stripe. That's exactly what he wanted. The Dr. had him supervise putting it on. He (Caleb) is so sweet. Do you know they have been praying about this cancer. God is so sweet. Anyway, he can still swim so he was thrilled to death. In fact, he went yesterday afternoon!!! Anyway, moving on. The results are in-glad finally but I've just been waiting on the Lord. There is no cancer in my abdomen. There is a little cancer in my sternum, Dr. Laidley will be removing the cancerous lymph node on the right along with a few others to check them. They haven't "staged" the cancer yet, so that will happen. The lymph node on the left may come out too. I will have chemo in order to kill the cells in the sternum. How can my witness be real effective if I don't go through all the stages of cancer- like chemo? I have to be able to empathize with others. Anyway, surgery is supposed to be next week so I'll keep everyone posted.

My brother crossed the gulf today heading back from Key West. It was a long day for him and the dog, I'm sure. He doesn't want to be around for any storms that maybe heading across the Atlantic-like Colin. I'm glad he's closer. Keep him in your prayers as he travels west.

We're taking the kids to the circus I think on Saturday. They don't know it yet. We'll ride DART and go to the American Airlines Center. Should be fun. Zachary, I'm sure, will be amazed.

Tonight we went to the Purple Cow and watched outside the water/music/light show. It was enjoyable and then we went and had ice cream. Everyone's asleep but me!!! (and the others out driving on the road).

With it being so late, I hope the raccoon comes to check out the feeders. I keep watching for him/her. They are so much fun to watch.

Caitlyn and Caleb both baked a cake in Caitlyn's easy bake oven. It was a fun-fetti cake and they iced them. They turned out really good. That machine is amazing-who would have ever thought that you could bake a cake using a powerful light bulb! Caitlyn wants to make the pretzels next. She loves to cook with me and I'm so glad she does. Well, gonna try and get some sleep so you all sleep well also.

Sunday, The day before all the tests reports come in. I hope. I'll be glad to know the results and hopefully we'll know the plan as soon as possible. I'm ready to move on and get the roller coaster moving and get it all over behind me. We have the kids only 3 more weeks. The time goes too fast when they are here. I'm so happy that we have Jesus supporting us and helping us to explain to them how a true christian handles bad situations. We love those kids so much. I don't know if you've heard or not, but we have another grand baby coming!!! In March, 2011 Zachary is going to be a big brother. It's exciting. Well, I'll keep you all posted on results!!! My love to you all.

Hello everyone, Well, today I had my PET scan today and we'll get those reports on Monday. I've never had an IV in my foot before. That smarted. I'd much rather have it somewhere else!! From there, we'll plan on what to do. I was a little disappointed that we don't have a plan yet but God already knows the plan and that's all I need to know. I'm relying on Him. Did you know that cancer cells LOVE sugar???? I didn't! Know one ever told me that. My diet has changed for sure!! I hope it's not too late. The PET scan uses glucose to get into the cancer cells. That just blows my mind. As one writer says, sugar is a poison to the cancer patient!!! There is also other things we can change our diet with to help prevent cancer. As I study more, I'll let you know what I discover. Well, gang, I'm going to bed. Tired and it was a long day. By the way, the roller coaster got the brakes put on for the weekend. Maybe next week, it'll start climbing that first hill again.

Well, good morning. I got the results the other day and I forgot to post them-I think. Well, here they are. Breast MRI-negative for any cancer YEAH!!!

Bone scan--may be something on my breast bone--not yea, praying it's not anything

CT-abdominal nodes may be enlarged-but not sure. It may be due to my "girth"

Chemo-probably

Mastectomy-no but I'm still going to talk to her about it

MD Anderson-I'll ask her about that also.

Today: Friday July 30th, bloodwork for surgery, consultation with Dr. Laidley on the plan of attack and a PET scan.

Then tonight, the Mesquite Rodeo!! Gotta see Caitlyn "mustin butt" again if she's selected, and watch both of them in a calf scramble. That's my day so far. I'll write down later about the planned attack

Good morning, Well yesterday I climbed aboard the roller coaster and got the tests all behind me. I feel great!! I'm anxiously awaiting the results and to "git 'er done" . Jesus is truly walking with me. 1 Peter 5:8 says to be aware and ALERT because the devil prowls around seeking who he can devour. He tried to devour me with cancer and because God, through my alertness, guided me to ask "what's that" and so again satan's plan to destroy me has failed! I FIRMLY believe that and if you don't read for yourself. I have read the end of "the book" and I know I'm the ultimate winner along with King Jesus!!! I've got things to do today to keep me busy til I hear from Dr. Laidley. I'm hopefully going with a friend Thursday because she has to have 2 biopsies done. I've been witnessing to another friend also. God is so good!!!! ALL THE TIME NO MATTER THE CIRCUMSTANCE!!! May HE only be glorified through this. Have a great and wonderful day!!!

Good Morning to you all my friends. I want you to "know how I am doing". God is so good to send me soooo many friends, prayers, phone calls. I just visited with a very long time friend of mine who works in radiology and was telling me a little of what to expect during the new test that I'm having done on Monday. Thank you Peggy for being there for me. I really am doing very well, just past the shock now and ready to get moving!!! I wish Monday was here and then results day and then "the plan of attack" day. Let's getting it going. I'm so thankful to God for His love of me and all the "God things" He allows to happen in my life. For those of you that don't know, God delivered me of uterine cancer. He just kept after me encouraging me to not stop trying to see what was wrong with me. After the hysterectomy, everything looked great until the day I went home when my Dr. told me I had uterine cancer and would have to undergo another surgery. That's a God thing. ALL 40-50 nodes in my abdomen were clear. Praise the Lord. If I'd have had my mammo the month it was due 6 years ago, breast cancer would have been missed so I praise God for reminding me that I had missed the appt time. I went in and wa-la I had breast cancer. Had I gone in Feb. , it would have been missed but because I went in April, they found it. It had a growth rate of 50% so at another year, it would have been too late. Now 6 years later, here I am again-starting down this path. God is walking besides me, around me, through me, etc. The Footprints Prayer or story is applicable here. No, I don't know what the future holds but I DO KNOW Who holds the future in His hands. He promised to Never leave me or forsake me and He won't!!!! I told Bryan the other day that I felt like he had married a "lemon" because of all the medical problems I've had. He said that he loves lemonade and it made me smile. Thank you Bryan. That meant SOOOO MUCH to me!!! I'm humbled by the love that everyone has shown. I don't like having to be on the receiving end-I'm the giver so this is hard for me. Thank you all for your great love of me and my family and if I don't know you, keep watching this blog because I want you to see how the love of Jesus forgives us and He's there for you to. All you have to do is to tell Him that you are a sinner. We ALL are, I am, my husband is, my pastor even is. Anyway, tell Him you are a sinner, ask Him to forgive you of your sins and to come into your life and be the Lord of your life. He will immediately. He doesn't promise us a "worry free" life but He promises to walk through everything with you. He does, I KNOW because I've had to walk through many a heartache and problems but I love Him more each day, want to serve Him more each day. If you have asked Jesus into your heart by reading this, please send me a note. God Bless you all!!!!

Hi everyone, Well, I'm much better today. I had the neatest experience last night. Two of our pastors came over with about 15 others and they anointed me with oil and prayed for me. I so appreciated it. It was a refreshing time of prayer and the Holy spirit being involved. Thank you so much for those at church. It was so neat also-Caleb and Caitlyn wanted to be involved. They anointed me with oil also and have been praying. I love those kids so much. Thank you Jesus for this time I have with them. I'm doing a lot better-I'll be glad when Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday gets here!!! Let's get the ball rolling and get this thing taken care of. Just keep us all in your prayers through the next weeks. I'll try to keep you all updated as I know anything.

Dear All, Well, the results were not good for me today. I have breast cancer again. This time it's on the right side and it's in a node. I don't know anything else at this time except I have to have a full body MRI and some CT scans. Just keep me in your prayers. I'm so thankful that my grandchildren are here to keep my mind off "the bad stuff". Thank You Jesus for them!!! All my love and just pray for me.

Well, I put a few pictures of the trip on here for you to enjoy. Now for the day I had. 1st this morning, I had to go to the "hand surgeon" to see how the break is doing. My hand is healing very slowly so he has curtailed my "right hand activity" for another month because I'm still in pain. Oh well, at least he said we're not looking at surgery because I am building new bone. Praise the Lord. Next, I had to have another biopsy today. My mammogram was great but my Dr. noticed a 1 cm. lymph node that didn't look right. She took samples of it today for slides and also a little of the node. She said that if she doesn't like the results, she will take it out. I hope I don't have to have surgery!! I'm just praying and I know that God is in control. satan won't defeat me, I just praise God for putting Dr. Laidley into my life!! I adore her-she's such an awesome Dr. Anyway, I should find out the results Wed. but probably Thursday. I'll keep you posted as to the developments. I hope you all have a great day and a blessed week.

Hello everyone, Well, we had a great trip to Branson with the kids.



Caitlyn dipped candles while at Silver Dollar City.

We are at the Saloon show here. The kids enjoyed the show.

Caleb watched Tom put his name on Caleb's bat. Caleb also added a cross to it. Tom put his initials on the end of the bat. He really enjoyed watching everything that happened.

Well, this was the end of a very full day at Silver Dollar City!!! Caleb and I had gone in the cave and rode a couple of rides but mostly it was pretty hot!! We had a good time in Branson. I still have some more pictures to put on the computer but I haven't had time to do it yet. We did quite a few things while we were there. More later.

Good afternoon everyone, Well, we've been gone again. I haven't put the pictures onto the computer yet so you'll just have to wait. Kimberly, Zachary, Caleb, Caitlyn, and I went to Branson and had an absolute ball!! It was a HOT ball but we had fun anyway. Went to Silver Dollar City, Dixie Stampede, and a bunch of other stuff. I'll post pictures when I can later on. We're celebrating Les' birthday this evening!!! Caitlyn is working on a birthday card for him. Caleb and Caitlyn sure do love Uncle Les. He is so special to them and they are special to him also. He sure missed us all while we were gone. Well, not much more happening right now so we'll talk later.

My brother wanted to watch Caitlyn in action on the ewe so I'll try to download this. Hope it works!! Okay, I'm still waiting!!! I've brushed my teeth, taken my medicine for the night, visited with Bryan for a few minutes and it's STILL downloading. I'll let it keep going for a few more minutes and then I'll give up on it. It's been about 20 minutes already. It didn't even last THAT long!!! I gave up, I'll try it again later. Good night!!!

I forgot to add with the rodeo pictures that Caleb WON the modified calf scramble last night!! He won $25.00. Instead of chasing the calf because of all the mud, they had to run from one side of the arena to the other. He pulled his boots, socks off, and then took off and beat all the kids! Way to go Caleb!!! Caitlyn participated in the mutton bustin and had a great time. She hung on really well!!! Congratulations Caitlyn!!

It would take me a hour or more to write about all that we have done. We're trying to do some educational stuff also besides just fun---but mostly fun. One thing we don't do is "play video games and watch tv all the time". That's for sure not good. These are a couple of pics of the rodeos. We've been to 2 but just only put in 1 or 2 pictures. We've had Sammie and Lindy's birthday luau!!! Complete with outfits, leaving tomorrow for Missouri for several days and then the rest of the time, we'll be around home swimming, playing with friends, and many more things. I hope you all enjoy this little bit of Heaven for us!!! The video STILL isn't uploaded!!!

Oh, the movie is at the bottom!!! Okay. Well, you can see what all is going on here-fun, fun, love, love, hugs, kisses, etc.

I hope the movie goes here! It's just one of the MANY movies we took at Arkbuckle Wilderness Area in Oklahoma. We had an absolute ball!!! It was a really neat day trip. I hope this video uploads okay. It's taking a long time!!!

This is a picture of Turner Falls in Oklahoma. We stopped by there after the Arbuckle Wilderness.
This was taken at the timeshares indoor waterpark in E. Texas. We were there several days and really enjoyed this park. Lazy river, wave pool, slides of all kinds, you name and we all did it!!

Here's a picture of Caitlyn in the pond. I guessed I skipped over the ones of Caleb. They had a great time swimming with Kodi and Uncle Les.

Good evening everyone. I wanted to share some sweet pictures and sweet moments with family and friends so far this summer. The kids are absolutely WONDERFUL!!! We are having such a great time with them. I put as much as I can on here. First, we had their birthday parties. Kimberly made their cakes. An Explorer type of vehicle for Caleb and an Ariel cake for Caitlyn. We had it at the waterpark with many in attendance. I didn't take pictures of all the people there!!